Heading out again

Yesterday was super fun and it was great to see some of the hostels respond so well. They were gladly taking in brochures and the beer mats. More so grateful that someone was doing something. I also met a great tour guide from Israel who showed me the city a bit more with some advice from what he's learned. Thank you. I just was loving the vibe. Even though one of the hostels on Long Street said they had 1 tourist come in all day, I could just feel the outpour about to arrive! I just belong out in the world more than inside. Whether I feel up to it or not at first, the real queries and unknown is what is thrilling. I met some great people and experiences on the train. It was even cool to share with my Israeli friend about the Human Trafficking. Train Station is nuts, but so much happening. Cape Town really isn't large, but it's perfect size to make relationships I feel. In fact so, it's the ones I meet, whom I'm not nurturing. Either feeling like a burden to come fetch me, make the time, effort, etc., like I've said before. However I have 2 months here left. WOW. Do with it what I can. Better news on the soccer camps with Livign Hope, I've connected Tim's team with Kevin and so grateful I see some things working out. We suggested the teams who need accommodation to stay with the locals in the townships and the YWAM teams would be more than excited to do so. Hopefully more can come out of it. It's more thana pleasure to connect poeople. To connect to make things work out. I thrive off of that. I hope it's not showing that i don't take responsibility for myself to do everything myself and follow through, I just like to see those passionate about one thing being able to connect them with another and have their powers and energies finish out the task or love. I remember Cristiana telling me that she says in some instances we feel we're not serving when there's a need and we're not enjoying it and only doing it because there's a need, when really we're taking the space of a job/task of someone who does have the passion and love for that, when they can't step up to the plate when we're doing it. Do you see what I mean? I loved that advice and it made me feel more secure in not feeling the love I believe I need to have in order to stay, say here in this country. Or at least come back to start girls soccer. It doesn't give me life to say I'm going to do it, but gives me life to speak about it and speak of the value and positivity that can and will come out of it. Promoting such a cause. What do I do with that?
Still feeling sick, so not fasting today out of eating nothing. With running around I didn't think my 24 prayer will be best here today. I must maintain it in all the places I'm going and doing. Carying the Holy Spirit with me. Digging for this deep. Been reading Timothy and such words of wisdom for those to walk upright. Try it out. Answers to real life situations will be concluded.
Daneeka's bday and I thin kwe're having people over tonight for that. I'm going to pay rent, go for quick run, then shower up and head into the city. Thank you all and Lord so much for this opportunity. I knew I was staying here for a reason.
Still waiting to hear from YWAM finance if there's an account to donate into with tax write off. I know the church can't do that anymore I guess with the new year so working on another strategy especially for my amazing family! You've been taking great care of me and I have no idea how to ever thank you or repay you enough. I love you,
Noel