Tuesday eve, watched Man U lose on base here

Yes at least this TV has been turned on for some use, other than a WC countdown.
I'm in such a weird position in thinking for my 'outreach' and purpose here. I still am super passionate about this stuff, but the more I'm here the more I'm hearing about trafficking and feeling that I don't have as much of a massive 'need' to go crazy about spreading a message. I'm still of course following through, not as thoroughly as planned, but then again, none of this was planned before. Perhaps God was using this interesting opportunity to keep me here. Prepare me. Of course we're always learning and preparing. I just feel like I'm in a strange place at the moment. Website isn't spectacular, but then again it's not suppose to be, it's going to be for a reference, and to push people to more important info on the other websites. There's great things out there, then again this message from originally God's world is super important. Yes I know, but I don't feel this crazy need to get this and that out. I was looking up The Ultimate Goal online and seeing so much going on for different ministries, and I feel once this brochure is designed, then we're ready to email it out to people to see what this message is about, see if they can and will help print out, hand out, talk about, check out powerpoint on website. Keep spreading more awareness and also throw in the abstain message that goes to the roots of the issues we're protecting against. So important, but there's like this itching desire that is moving my attention. I keep hearing/seeing more around the world cup, with soccer etc. I even went on the field today with my soccer socks on, well actually tonight under the lights while I caught Brian going to a training. They're rubbish, but I still wouldn't play with anyone yet. I barely did much but I'm sore.
So nice though to start somewhere. It's just terribly difficult to see what's going on with trainings, ministries, teams, coachin, and no car. It's not easy. And if anything goes past night time, you can't be out, at least not alone. White girl. Hard.
I spent the day in Fish Hoek trying to work on website with Jeff, and with no phone it wasn't easy, I didn't catch him til almost noon and by then I was about to leave but managed to find Iain at his work and we headed to deeper Fish Hoek into the mall to go to badgeman. We got quotes for badges, and if we get around 5000 it'll cost about R2 each. If we sold them for R5 we could use profits to produce more brochures.
People keep asking how ministry is going and I'm confused because I feel good, but yet I it's not really because I still hav enothing to show. However, I feel like once we have this message on a brochure and website, ANYONE can access it. Kiffie and the arts ministry thing here who are doing 50 events, we need to link in, help create/be at events and 'hey' there we give out our information etc. That's the type of thing, we our team, I see us needing to get linked into. Soon we won't have anything more to work on except getting the message out.
I still want to get Collins and Kenny on CCFM and spread awareness here, and if churches/schools raise up interest in desiring something to do for WC time, they can help get this message out in the streets etc. I even have contacts to hotels etc., it's just deciding what's best to be there for that audience. We need brochure done, it's just in Iain's hands and he needs his free days, which since it' sholidays with 4 day weekend, he can't work on it much I think til Friday. hard to ask for more especially when it's not me and it's not my job.
Wish I could be at calm and peace even if it's not a proper job in my hands, then again that's how I like things, BUT, I also hate not 'moving'. Hardest thing to do. My dad is the same way. Yes dad we can never have 'nothing' no 'goal' to go towards. It really urks us. I know. Hardest thing for me to do is chill. Even harder is to chill, not thinking about anything in the future or past. What a gift it would be to be present. Yes?
Probably not making much sense anymore. However, tomorrow gonna work on writing up proposal for help in printing and badges, supposed meeting with CCFM at 10 but haven't heard from them yet, and then we'll be going to Capricorn, my FIRST experience in a township tomorrow with some students who are doing lil ministry out there for youth. I'm stoked. Then meting at 8pm with this big sports man mark Gasper or something with the WC Kick Off team. Hope all goes well adn the lights begin to shine on what we're to do next. What to pursue. Where to move, when to move.
I'm exhausted!
Love you all!