Tuesday and its getting chilly

I don't want to say too much, but I want to express my gratefulness to people's responses. Even if you didn't know I was down, your saying something or interacting has been nice. Nice to hear, nice to get away. I get tunnel vision. Perhaps that's why soccer was such a passion for me because I knew the goals to get better and I drove myself with that. I am/was a mule. So strange to see me have these chicken legs here now. No muslce. We passed a soccer field on the way to Mowbray on the train today and i was really missin it. yes I know dad and Matty both saying I gotta get out. But you all don't understand that it's not organized here, and there's not real times or teams. It's not that easy, so I can this being calculated into something I"ll put time and energy towards and become frustrated. For me 100% or not.
So it's 9pm, and I'm here on this cold base with the wind blowing through the cracks of the windows. Reminds me of when I first came to this base.
I recently left a meeting with Geraldine and Godfrey who have so graciously been putting their time and efforst along with faith in abstain2010. They have had the document back from the professionals, this guy Jordan who's passionate and helpful and has done this sorts of paperwork etc., especially at University of Cape Town and more it sounds, and he's desiring to help but has so many corrections to make before we can move this. MAYBE this is what God is waiting on? I have no clue. I"m tired of thinking this or that. But he resorted back to the audience and the direction as well as solutions for this document, from an outsider who is first reading and wanting to be involved, especially perhaps funding wise, and backing, he said it's confusing. Even the title with everything. SO, we took all the notes from G and G and we spat out our responses, and also we on our side, Cristian and Deneeka and I expressed what we've been doing on our side. The meetings with movie, tshirt ideas, and even Daneeka and I spent today on train going to the bead-making muslim ministry house to see the bead work. We designed this GREAT I thought, cheap, R3 bracelet. They would love to mass produce and make extra money on the side. So I loved it and so did D. Thought we could even sell them for R10 which is like $1.20 for americans and use the profit to get more for more people and also get adverts printed with the costs. Just thinking here.
Train ride was fun, and it's nic getting to know Daneeka better. SHe's so dang young, only 20 and yet she's putting her time and energy, which seems from the outside calm and collected, in helping. She's passionate in a strange way. I'm crazy and excited, talking about today on the train for like half an hour how 'we' the team can all 5 get in a van and start travelling SA taking this acronym. Even filming it to create documentary etc. it went on and on bless her heart. I really tell her I need her so much even to listen and ditch back ideas. SHe just giggles and says little. WHen she does, it's important.
So, to rewind even more after this frustrating meeting feeling back at the beginning again, this morning Colins, Cristian, Daneeka and I got together at my house, because there is no other rooms to meet, to pray. We just came to God. Then we went to a Justice Acts trainig being held on base. Great Tonya, the creator had traffic proof presented for us, about 20 people to learn and dish out. Amazing that even a couple from our base cam ebecause of their incidence of trafficking just in their apartment a few blocks away.
The husband said he'd been seeing these youn gstreet boys coming in and out of the apt often, and then finally I think their neighbor, who's trained snyper and still a cop I guess, suited up, broke down the door and ALMOST caught a middle-aged man in the act with this little boy naked. Since I guess he wasnt' in the 'act', the police couldn't press charges. I dont' know the full story, but basically this apt, had been rented out for this sex-work. YOUNG BOYS! Oh I fear when I see their eyes now, seeing those young eyes who have and are seeing so much pain to live.
Well, basically we're back to waiting to meet with this guy Jordan and the core of us, to dish out our specifics to get his right. OH MAN! My web guy Jeff is going to hate me. Man oh man! Still, that's the story. I'm so tired because I was up early walking this morning on our beautiful beach, so I must retire here soon. Please keep safe and well, especially you Andie my lil one. Love you