Tuesday Morning listening to Davind Crowder and read

I woke up with not the certain direction, like every morning, but it's ok. I'm at a peace that I can't describe this morning. I tried so much yesterday to pray for God to give me a clear mind. I've cluttered it all the time with thoughts about this campaign, body image, what I'll eat, what I'll wear, when I'll get time to do this or that, desperately worrying about who maybe mad at me, who I need to catch up with, if I've offended this or that one, who needs me here and there, it's on and on. I said God please hush those thoughts. God please forgive me for my sins and clear my mind to just praise you. "holy holy holy, Lord God almighty." That's all I desire. In that, you see my love. More importantly, I see your love.
Finally this morning, without having that 'feeling' during my walk, my prayers, my Bible readings, I still found the joy. The peace came this morning.
I was so frustrated yesterday with not feeling like I'm going anywhere or making improvements. AFter my walk, I saw Stefan and he reminded me that he knew Elrico from the government and he's great guy to be speaking with to get things done. He also said that he was looking through his old business cards and found the UNAID immediate contact from the US, whom he met the day of the draw on the street! Guy gave him his card to contact anytime to help him. WOW!
Then Prosper desires to continue to help. He has a laptop with internet, AND going to be buying a scanner/faxer/printer, along with skype headset which is at Cristian's place being stored so he's using it with Prosper's blessing.
The Switzerland team's been awesome! They have been great and wonderful company, encouragment, event helping me write my newsletter for YWAM bases. Thank you Chris.
Prosper as well as Stefan have been startin to write proposals or at least asking the right people to help write them. Stefan still desires and looks to push this message much further...that way government programs get on long-term.
I have 2 new contacts from Ketani who is down with media village, who has been trying super hard to get me a web man to help with project. He's found a guy he said in email who really wants to get involved with project and help and this is his profession. Ketani said he'd even bring him over personally to work on website. What a blessing eh?
Meeting with Joelle and Mark from Ambassador in Sport tonight, let them know about project and see what they're up to with TUG.
NK from CCFM CHristian radio station said he'd love to meet up and hear where we are in this project and much more so he understands why I wasn't prepared to get on the radio yet and tell about this major campaign, and yet not have all the answers, let alone main mission statement enabled yet.
The guy Phil Cunningham wrote me back, the guy that creates this Jungle Beat kids animation for airplanes. He's ready to hear my proposal when I have it settled.
Good news I suppose. Prosper says, the Lord tells us to do what we can, and he'll do the rest.
I need more faith to just rest easy. Perhaps that's the feeling I have this morning.
I read James 2. Faith Without Works Is Dead
This is what I've been asking God to remind me. Help me believe and know that no matter what I do, I don't earn his love. He already loves me. I'm already His. No matter how hard I work, how many people I touch, how many people I save, he still loves me. But I still shouldn't sit on that alone. I must be in this world doing my 'mission'
"If a brother os sister is naked and destitute of daily food, and one of you says to them, 'Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,' but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have words, is dead. But someone will say, 'You have faith and I have work.' Show me your faith without your works, AND I WILL SHOW YOU MY FAITH BY MY WORKS.'"
That's what spoke to me. I have nothing and am capable of nothing except with the Lord. He provides. He makes things happen. I pray with Cristian to help our work be doubled as if more were here helping. Since it is only us ;)
But, that is what I'm needing more of. I'm also needing more people to have such faith! I hear more and more by those who aren't Christians who say this message is rediculous. No one will listen! I keep saying, God can do anything. Only with him, will it work. He can do miracles we can't even fathom. Why not go after it? You people want to see tangible, be realistic, and that's not God. If you could pin point and answer all the questions, then this thought process and procedure would be of human understanding not supernatural. Therefore, we'd be worshipping and following a God that's only as good as the human mind. This isn't true. That't why we have a hard time believing and moving forward in what we/I don't understand and know.
Thank you Father