Message I felt yesterday (I am Mist)

I had a great time at the Braai, and I think the community did too. I felt a few skeptic about the whole mingling, but in the end, there was dancing, even a few acts, our DTS team even performed our play in front of the whole lot, and it was awesome! Thank you all who helped!
Today, another amazing day! I was laying by the pool yesterday, trying to ask God what he's trying to say to me. Especially with these ideas and dreams like The HIV/AIDS campaign I feel so strongly about. BUT, with this time of DTS outreach, it's almost impossible for me, to take on the role, or even after DTS with 3 months left before the World Cup. Oh man!
I felt the scriptre in my head, James 4:16. Now this is how unsure I was it was God and not me, I was thinking, am I making this up? Is there even a James book in the Bible? lol honestly had to look to make sure because I doubted my thoughts.
Sure enough, this was the scripture
"As it is, you boast in your arrogant schemes. All such boasting is evil. So then, if you know the good you ought to do and don't do it, you sin."
WOW, that made me really think what is this message relaying to me right now in my life? Does that mean my ideas that are BIG and not really involving my DTS or is it future? Is it the people RIGHT next to me? Then I wanted to go back and read all of James 4. The title is Submit Yourselves to God.
It basically sums up to me that the battle is inside me. The battle isn't among the peers around me whom I feel at many times, akward or annoyed by, but really the battle is DEEP inside. It's the original sin that's welling inside, that makes me want to think someone is ignorant or react sarcastically. I hate that I do this.
It also says that you do not received because you do not ask God. And when you do ask, your motives are wrong. "You adulterous poeple, don't you know that friendhsip with the world means enmity against God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of teh world becomes an enemy of God. Or do you think Scripture says without reason that he jealously longs for teh spirit he has caused to dwell in us? But he gives us more gras. that is why Scripture says:
'God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble and oppressed.' Submit yourselves then, to God. Resist th edevil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you."
Such power. I feel this battle that I can't always accept and believe my humbleness of myself and yet also at the same balance, he really loves me just the same. I wonder how the rest feel? :)
My favorite is the verse just above what I felt called to read, James 4:13, titled Boasting About Tomorrow.
"Now listen, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money. Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, 'If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that."
Man, I am mist.