During our worship I wrote this from my heart

I'm drowning. I've slipped into the pool as when I did as a child. I couldn't swim. But the glory and beauty with the peace I saw and felt when away in the glimmering blue, put a peace upon me. I captured that moment. That moment felt right and good. Another world came over me for that split second. I Noel, I want to die. I desire to die. I want to lose my name, my title and gain His. I need the title of God's sheep. I want to be born in that other aura. I am a child of God, no longer Noel. I am His. I am He. She is He. We are one. He's carrying me. Love me, then I can love the rest.