Bit of my Daily Journal

We're asked to answer a few questions in our journals every week after a topic and speaker. Then we have one on one's to share our journals with. My one on one is with this awesome women named Elaine from accounting. At first I had no idea who she was and had to seek her out to introduce myself, but we will be officially meeting together tomorrow at the nearby Kosie's cafe.
I was leary about her at first because I didn' tknow her, but she did come into class Friday to give us our whole HIV/AIDS talk. I guess it's compulsary in this country. We need to learn. Her story at the end about how she'd been married and basically lost 4 children in different ways and on and on I'll learn more, just touched me. Man she's incredible! Can't wait to REALLY hear from words of wisdom from her!
Anyways, back to the journal. We were to summarize 4 main goals for us during our DTS. I had a hard time summing it up, but I do want to make it public to not forget either.
1. Find my Calling (make it tangible and be goal oriented if possible)
2. Make God Personal (Better Hear Him)
3. Stronger Faith (Believe/Know)
4. Push/Provide/Serve Others
Lastly I guess if you're not too bored I'll share my letter to God.
Dear God,
DTS found me You came to me. I know this is where at 25, you desire for me to be. Stop my cluter and bustling. Just to stop!
I fear in knowing this, that I miss out, miss something. help me to know my anxieties will be at bay when I give them to you.
Lord I need to be in you, aide from the wordly distractions and even worse, MY dreams out there. You've made me this alive-networking spirit for a purpose. Help me to hone those gifts.
In DTS I want my gifts to expand, be clear and all from you. I want to hear (know) you oh so much more than I ever have.
I see/hear what DTS has done for other and I want that light. They know you so much closer and I want you in me whole heartedly to overcome my human self.
I fear I'll tip too far in teh direction either too much 'networking' and busy in such an amazing new place-or try to be so alone i you and my team. Help for the balance you desire.
I want to know everyone on my team in such a connection and way that none of us have ever experienced.
Keep me Lord in yours. Subside my earthly feelings. I don't want distractions. I want to be clear to hear and grow and most importantly to take waht you've given me and multiply it by so much more! Show me what I felt I was incapable of. Show me the mountains can move and I too can move them. I love you, thank you for bringing me here.
Noel